Sorry for flooding your inboxes, I've really been putting off scanning things and lately all I've been doing are insubstantial sketches. I haven't drawn anything that I really want to torture myself colouring. I've been more concerned wiiith...WELL. Aggressively practicing. I think my number one goal lately is to refine my style of drawing, to learn more about the human body and how it moves, about proportions and variance, about facial features and facial expressions, SO...that lends itself more to sketching a whole lot.

I REALLY AM WORKING ON THAT TEN THINGS THING.

I've been meaning to write a journal but I've had difficulty recapping what I wanted to recap, finding a word or two to summarize basically what's been going on. I guess it could best be deemed...wary? Frustrated? Jaded? Restless but not in an entirely bad way? I've just been thinking about things lately. Not that they're bad or anything!

Hell, I'm happy it's December, even. I love December. Bah, and I really miss seeing my friends

8( Even if I'm quiet or whatever

WHATEVER.

that's it!

And on another note of course we're fully aware about how TDP's totally been quiet lately, but it's in the process of being rectified. Yeah, finally. So keep your eyes peeled if you happen to both be watching me and are in ze club.


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moved 8)

Still alive

School is nearing its end and I'm happy to day I'm looking into a new major and a new career path. Its serious consideration came as a shock for everyone I've told and to me as well, even. I don't really know how to take that other than I know I need to stop assuming that the shock or even disagreement of others is some sort of bad omen or a curse.

Man, I change goals like I change clothes. I'm not really confident that I'll be able to find one thing I could do for the rest of my life, unless by that one thing we're including breathing, eating, drinking copious amounts of water, babbling on, drawing, daydreaming...harassing friends

and anyway. Sorry I haven't been around lately to update or fulfill my duties. Life's been incredibly distracting lately


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I can't believe this week is thanksgiving

I feel like I'm stuck in a fucking timewarp. NOT A COOL TIMEWARP but this...god I don't know. My sense of time is /so/ off. God, but I made good money this week already! I had an 8.5 hour shift last night because they asked if I could stay later from my scheduled shift. And I'm that girl that when they call me in on days I usually ca't because either I have a class, I have other plans, or...wejrstegdgsdf I selfishly want to relax, lolol SO I FEEL GOOD ABOUT ACCUMULATING A LITTLE BIT OF GOOD KARMA THERE.

I mean, I like the people I work with. Damn near all of them, so...it wasn't like pulling teeth or anything and ze customers vere okay. In fact I got pulled off cash yesterday to talk to the big boss WHOM I HAVE AN AXE TO GRIND FOR but she was actually decent to me. Today I work another six hours and tomorrow I work five whicchhh is 190 dollars. sfdfgjfthfgjgfj THAT IS THE COST OF MY FUTON RIGHT THERE.

So in other Futon related news, we're moving on the 27th and...sajygfhsdgdfh I'm...UGH I don't know, stressed? I have a brilliant plan B when it comes to balancing work and school. The 24th is a wedding and from then to a day after we move I took the week off AND. AND. My luck is amazing, that's my reading week so I'm pleased about that.

YOU BETTER LIKE FUTONS SILVER YOU WHORE. No floor for you. but if you'd like to sleep on a raft of blow up dolls instead that'd be dandy, especially if they're all molded in my pristine image mmm bby

I have so much junk to toss out/recycle/whathaveyou, so much cleaning to do, so much...ughh. But yes! I keep thinking about my new room with uhm, a new desk and new shelves and a new dresser and a futon and it's a very good image that I'm willing to work towards. That is, my parents were going to buy me a new dresser, I'm asking for a plain ol' desk for christmas and I'm buying myself a futon and...GODDDD I NEED BOOKSHELVES SOMEHOW. CHEEEEAPPP ONES I DON'T EVEN CARE BUT I NEED THEM. I don't even think we should pretend that I don't hoarde books anymore. My collection is fucking piling up like baby rabbits. IT'S TERRIBLE. I DREAM OF HAVING A MASSIVE LIBRARY FULL OF SHIT I'M INTERESTED IN WHEN I'M OLD. And I have to stop half-reading books. fuucckk meeee oh my god that's such a bad habit, I go from reading like...a bit of my text books, that classical greek book, to Brave New World which I haven't finished yet EVEN IF IT'S GETTING 2348734785346 TIMES MORE INTERESTING, to...particle physics and god forbid, HISTORY CRAP and then trying to teach myself the Arabic-Persian alphabet and...qwrjsgtsdrfhyrtukerbvryb my head is in 45834764646 places all at once and it's kind of a bad thing

I really think I should just assign myself to the books I haven't read fully in my collection and just...set the goal of finishing each in a week. I don't even know if I could, I'm a decent reader and all but factor in the stuff I need to read and write for school with balancing time on the Internet with my bbies and RPing and the club and that's not even counting the time I get to hang out with my friends because IT HASN'T HAPPENED IN HOW MANY WEEKSSS? SUKRGFEUYFH4645YH I MISS YOU PEOPLE ESPECIALLY BECAUSE THE LAST FEW TIMES I HUNG OUT WITH YOU I HAD TO LEAVE EARLY DUE TO FEELING LIKE SHIT which makes me feel even more like crap because I hate doing that and...wfjuj84yrt I'm feeling a lot better with the stupid iron pills I'm taking. Kind of. When I remember to take them.

ugghhh. Christmas though I really do hope that we'll all be able to get together at least once because I had a lot of fun last christmas and by then I'll have a house and shit and...well, okay my house will be boring but...I don't know, it would be really nice to finally have people over in a place that's not the size of a thimble?!

HRGNNN okay this was full of ranting and I was going to delegate myself to packing today but...poop. yeah. anyway. I think next monday I'm just going to get shit over with and visit the library and write my second summary article so I don't have to do it the day before. mmmm.

man, and on another note Kumon's been frustrating me lately because we're short staffed. I think we're actually really only short one person and the problem's in the process of being remedied and I have a feeling that last year I was spoiled when I got to go home at a good time since...we were overstaffed then, lol. I don't know. I love the kids, I like the people I work with, but when I have a handful of them lined up fifteen minutes to close waiting for their work to be marked while I'm working with a younger kid who needs to read to me? I feel inadequate. I kind of pride myself on taking the time to actually go over work with the kids and explain to them what they're doing wrong and how to fix it and it's just...hard to do that and I feel bad when I can't. I feel bad when I can't quickly read the passage they had to read so I can look at their answers and instead of marking them all wrong because they vary from the book, use a little bit of my own judgment. I think it's wrong to discourage divergent thinking like that. I know what it can do to a kid's confidence to get their answers marked wrong when they're so close to being right, and especially without explanation so I just...ughh. big rant is big. This isn't university, this is a tutoring place, yes there's an element of independent learning and most of it IS, but really, why don't they just have machines marking their work if I'm just going to look at a book and mark the things wrong that differ from it in the slightest?

ANYWAY. aahhhhsdfshagdjdg it's cold. Somebody said something about snow later this week. Mmm I forget it's nearing midOctober though. That's not alarming at all. and STFU OVER YOUR CRAPPY SUMMERS I LIKED THE WEATHER SO WHATEVER.

ANNNDDDD AS A FINAL NOTE I tend to upload more to scraps, especially now that I'm in school and doodling a lot. Mm...I don't know what I was going to say. I feel bad for not uploading. I haven't really finished any polished off works though. The big thing is that leader picture which...MM. I'm going to work on it right now actually after I finish filling these boxes and peeing.

AUFWIEDERSEHEN!!!!!

ps. German soap operas kick American/Canadian soap operas around hardcore. I'm not saying they're a work of art. Oh no. But they're...much better. GEEZ. I'm going to go flee to Germany. o bby


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So school was interesting today. I woke up at 6am after tossing and turning in a hot, muggy room with a wealth of shit running through my mind, but there is good news yet; I WASN'T HORRENDOUSLY TIRED, I GOT UP, WHICH MEANS IT'S ACTUALLY POSSIBLE. I tell you though. 8am to 5pm's worth of classes? I think it'll enhance my productivity to be out of my room for so long, to be surrounded by readings and shit, but we'll see. All I can think, though, is how grateful I am to have this silly laptop up and working.

Classes were cancelled though. We'll, that's a white lie. My Greek civilizations course, the professor emailed us all saying there would in fact be an hour session, but...ugh, no. The Russian class was actually cancelled though. Man, I was going to buy books too, but the crowd was fucking horrendous. No thanks. Not THAT eager to fork over my money. So I just walked around with my friend at her orientation, got free stuff and showed her around the school.

I'm sort of looking forwards to it. Maybe joining a club or something. Should join chess club so I can get better and FINALLY KICK DAD'S ASS. I'll feel so out of place though. I'm not a good player by any means.

LOLOL ANYWAY your sketches are coming <3


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So, snagged this. Christmas in...September?! Yeah, why not.

The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a sketch, free. That's it. lolol I changed the rules.

1. Emyrin
2. 3721
3. Silverleaf14
4. Ten-chan
5. Turninto
6. GoAskAna
7. Questionablemuffin
8. Phr34kishOLOLOL MYSTERY PERSON
9. Lovers-and-fighters
10. Comatoze

THAT'S ALL FOLKS LOLOLOL


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